Poetry by
John E. Cashwell
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About The Author:
John E. Cashwell is  the author of four highly imaginative
novels, twelve short stories, fifty short poems, and the
new, acclaimed six-book epic poem Toishan. He has over
forty years advertising, marketing and copy writing
experience, most notably responsible for helping to
launch the Panasonic brand to consumers in North
America. A former US Marine and a graduate of Duke
University, John lives  on the Albemarle Plantation in
Hertford, North Carolina, where he enjoys writing,
fitness training and golf with his wife of fifty-two years,
Ann M. Cashwell.


                   “Requiem for Allie”

Morning Terror:

Softly beckoning—
an end to languishing
morning light.

                                      In the forest—
                                              aloof from the morning
                                                                      an owl cries.

                                                                                                                     Sifted by chiffon curtains
                                                                                                                                flowing on a breeze
                                                                                                                                          a wren’s song.

Dressed in black—
only crazed eyes visible
         assassins.

                                      Wild screaming—
                                              amid thin clouds of smoke
                                                                              a firefight.

                                                                                                                                                    Her body
                                                                                                                      hands reaching urgently
                                                                                                                                                        for me.

A look of rebuke
received without regret
      reverence.

                                           Then a simple nod
                                                      her smile acknowledging
                                                                              life isn’t fair.

                                                                                                                           Even in my weakness
                                                                                                        never to stop till my heart stops
                                                                                                                                  a kind of integrity.

Hard Times Next Right:

The sun—
reflecting on a billion particles
      a pink and beautiful poison.

                                              Always a nightmare—
                                                      no matter when or where
                                                                                      freeways.

                                                                                                                  Out to a residential district
                                                                                                                a flask for my inside pocket
                                                                                                                                        grand marnier.

White H sign—
on a blue background
      hospital.

                                            Antiseptic smell—
                                                      starched uniforms on fat bodies
                                                                                      her room.

                                                                                                                                           Frantic eyes—
                                                                                                             all that can move, she moves
                                                                                                                                    from her neck up.

Permanently tight—
turned down at the corners
      a sad mouth.

                                              Eyes that find me
                                                      but a face that cannot
                                                                                      held tight.

                                                                                                                                   Behind those eyes
                                                                                                  arms that reach for me but cannot
                                                                                                                                        forever broken.

Medical Madness:

Eyes of an intruder—
crossing the line of decency
      do not look!

                                              Above her eyebrows
                                                      holding her head tight
                                                                                      a strap.

                                                                                                                             A network of tubes—
                                                                                                            connecting bags of clear fluid
                                                                                                                                                 utility tree.

A low hissing sound—
pumping air up her nose
      ventilator.

                                              Internal screaming—
                                                      from the sidelines like a soccer coach
                                                                                      a harsh whisper.

                                                                                                                                  Fear of rejection—
                                                                                                    feelings forever below the surface
                                                                                                                                       unrequited love.

Then that part
about wanting to die
      tired eyes.

                                              Nervous gestures
                                                      quivering chin and tearful eyes
                                                                                      what am I to do?

                                                                                                                          The flask to her mouth
                                                                                                               “Jesus, that is so-o-o good!”
                                                                                                                                       screw the meds.

Gate Of Heaven:

In the valley—
brilliant oranges and pinks and purples
      a bowl of sunset.

                                              The colors some sort of reward
                                                      for breathing poisoned air
                                                                                      every day.

                                                                                                                                              At evening—
                                                                                                  a smooth orange with white wisps
                                                                                                                                        creamsicle sky.
            
Ankle deep—
at the bottom of the hill
      rain tracks.

                                              Huge mausoleums—
                                                      rising upon the hillside
                                                                                      tombs.

                                                                                                                                Then a green plane—
                                                                                                              without markers of the dead
                                                                                                                                            alicia’s place.

Black casket—
silently descending
      alicia’s end.

                                              A single red rose—
                                                      then shovels of heavy dirt
                                                                                      alicia’s comforter.

                                                                                                                                      Even after death
                                                                                                                        a brutal edict of secrecy
                                                                                                                                                             ciao.

The Hunt:

Black gold—
palaces built on a sand bar
      dubai.

                                              Venice of the Desert
                                                      only 20 years of oil left
                                                                                      what then?

                                                                                                                      On the backs of camels—
                                                                                                                  disappearing into the light
                                                                                                                              t     error merchants.

A desert backwater—
now an economic powerhouse
      streets with no names.

                                              Camel races in the desert
                                                      skyscrapers in the background
                                                                                      emirati vs capitalism.

                                                                                                                             Calls of the muezzins
                                                                                                            echoing 5x through the desert
                                                                                                                                      t      hey are here.

Iranian saffron—
shell sandalwood and frankincense
      a spice souk.

                                              An unsure conversation—
                                                      entrusted to one who speaks twice
                                                                                      interpreter.

                                                                                                                                       A modern gift—
                                                                                                             insults that loosen the tongue
                                                                                                                                                  mikimoto.

Misdirection:

Crushed shell and coral—
blindingly fine, clean and white
      the sand.

                                              A port of call—
                                                      on an ancient trade route
                                                                                      dubai creek.

                                                                                                                                        Shaved heads—
                                                                                                                             working the jalboots
                                                                                                                                          abra captains.

On the water—
silver globes waxing and waning
      the moon.

                                              Winking, beckoning—
                                                      marking the sought after boat
                                                                                     a green lantern.

                                                                                                                                       Silent ascension
                                                                                                            out of the rain, into the storm
                                                                                                                                                     betrayal.

Powerful hands
pulling me up by my mouth
      like a fish.

                                              In the water again
                                                      dragged along the keel
                                                                                      a hopeless fool.

                                                                                                                                           Swollen lungs
                                                                                                                        extreme water presence
                                                                                                                                        forever broken.

Captivity:

A vast wilderness—
continuous body of sand
      arabian desert.

                                              Red dunes and deadly quicksand
                                                      oscillating extreme temperatures
                                                                                      alone.

                                                                                                                                Spiny-tailed lizards
                                                                                                      cactus water and creature blood
                                                                                                                                               sustenance.

Off on a tangent—
the name of a once popular song
      wandering.

                                              Blistered lips
                                                      dehydrated body and vapid mind
                                                                                      crawling now.

                                                                                                                                                   Tired eyes
                                                                                                        and that familiar longing to die
                                                                                                                                       almost finished.

A Turkish caravan—
plucked like the carcass of a jackal
      rescue.

                                              My body—
                                                      the final degradation
                                                                                      a currency.

                                                                                                                                 An insane barter—
                                                                                                                in sufficient quantity to buy
                                                                                                                              the weapons of war.

Delicious Revenge:

High in the Hajjar Mountains—
alongside a boarder with Oman
      muhammad hatta.

                                              Nomads dressed in dishdashas
                                                      camel herders roaming the desert
                                                                                      beodouins.

                                                                                                                         Dominating the village
                                                                               built of stone and mud and palm tree trunks
                                                                                                                                                  fort hatta.

Room to room
kicking in palm-leaf doors
      unproductive search.

                                              Then the call of a muezzin
                                                      in the crowd now, seeking sanctuary
                                                                                      cowards.

                                                                                                                    Back against a stone wall
                                                                                                  pivoting to kick open another door
                                                                                                                                           prey revealed.

In the Mosque
flipping heavy metal cylinders
      hand grenades.

                                              Wild screaming—
                                                      amid thick clouds of smoke
                                                                              a firefight.

                                                                                                                    Two dead assassins but—
                                                                                   numerous casualties, women and children
                                                                                                              screw the collateral damage.

Things of the Heart:

An ancient aircraft—
roaring through a night sky
      a place to rest.

                                              Fresh water and food
                                                      accepted with great gratitude
                                                                              a broken body to nourish.

                                                                                                                                    A whisky priest—
                                                                                                              too drunk to give absolution
                                                                                                                          my flying companion.

A shadow of its former self—
chiffon curtains and a wren’s song
      our place.

                                              A barren room now—
                                                      and a longing deeper than sin
                                                                                      emptiness.

                                                                                                                      A formal investigation—
                                                                                               picking apart each piece of a debacle
                                                                                                                                                       inquiry.

Denying her complicity—
easier than anything I've ever done
      reverence.

                                              Surrender—
                                                      admitting to a vaporous mind
                                                                                      exit strategy.

                                                                                                                            Caissons and caskets
                                                                                                                    amid knells of heavy bells
                                                                                                                flags too, but none waving.



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